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10 Things I Would Say In A Confession Booth

This post was inspired by Bethany Actually’s Monday meme today. I’m too ADD to complete the whole thing, but I started thinking about the things I would love to say if I could remain anonymous. If no one could see my face, but could hear the truth I’d like to speak, what would I say?

1. My heart breaks whenever I’m around you. I always feel like an outsider. But I remember listening to you complain that others had done this to you. My world was too small to understand it then.

2. Your life is about to change in ways you’d never imagine. There’s just as much pain as there is joy up ahead.

3. High school was the high point of your life. But there’s still a lot of life left to live. Don’t give up.

4. I don’t believe that there is such a thing as an easy road.

5. I’ve never met a girl with such a big heart. You’re beautiful inside and out. I can’t stand the guy you married. I wish that I’d set you up on a blind date. You’re way out of his league.

6. You make everyone around you miserable. When did that start? I hope it’s not contagious.

7. I sided with her out of loyalty. But looking back, I think you deserved that inheritance more than the kids did. I wish you were still a part of my life.

8. I want to be like you when I grow up. If I told you that it would hurt someone else’s feelings. But it’s true.

9. I still eat Walker shortbread cookies to remember you every Christmas. You were my favorite grandfather even if you did turn into a dirty old man. I loved you blindly. And I still do.

10. My feet may be big but they’re beautiful. And you’re in jail. Who’s laughing now? Haha!

Death of a Ballerina - Part 2 -

Previously on Citystreams, Clary discovered a teenager’s body in the employee locker room at the hospital where she’s a brand new OB/Gyn resident.

Tanjia ended her conversation with the dispatcher and snapped the cell phone shut. She glared at the phone before stuffing it back in her pocket. Then turning towards Clary, she said, “The police are on their way. Stupid woman asked if we needed an ambulance. Then she asked if the girl died of natural causes. Where do they get these people?” She shook her head in amazement and examined the ceiling.

Clary turned towards her locker and considered the warm dry scrubs inside. Hesitating, she glanced down at the body. The girl’s stage make-up stood out brightly against the grey-white flesh. Changing in this room didn’t sound very appealing, but a bathroom down the hall would be just fine. She fumbled with the lock, trying to get the combination right on the first try. Tanjia stood with her hand on the doorknob, watching Clary. Her face reflected a certain amount of distrust.

“I’m just getting a change of clothes,” Clary said. She was surprised at how small her voice sounded. After removing the scrubs and tennis shoes, she shoved her purse and umbrella inside. Her fingers slipped and the door slammed shut. The sound echoed through the quiet room, sending chill bumps up her arms.

Both women were visibly relieved to leave the crime scene. They walked together in silence. At the hall’s four-way intersection, Tanjia turned right and moved behind the nurses’ station. Clary listened as she called out the details of the ordeal to the other nurses nearby. She turned left, in a daze and found her way to the visitors’ restroom.
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Greg Anderson stood in the hall, holding a cup of coffee and imagining the events of the night before. Three forensics experts were inside the locker room processing the scene, and after ten years of experience in law enforcement he knew to stay out of their way. Detective Maine stood nearby, questioning the nurse who had called 911. The stairwell door opened behind Greg, and he reflexively put his hand on his holster as he turned around. His eyes widened in surprise and he let go of his cup of coffee.

Clary paused in the doorway and they stared at each other without speaking. Her long white coat and green scrubs sent a startling revelation through his brain.

“What are you doing here?” He squatted to pick up the coffee cup, and struggled to make sense of her unexpected presence. “The last time I talked to you, back in March, you said you were moving to Florida, right?”

A sigh escaped from Clary’s lips and she shifted her weight awkwardly. “I … well, I lied to you.” She studied the top of her brother’s head as he wiped up the coffee, looking for any thinning of his dark hair. “It seemed the best thing to do at the time. The weekend before match day, you eloped with Regina. Mom told me about it while we were waiting for my match results. I was so numb that I didn’t even hear my name when it was read from the podium. All of my friends were staring at me. It was like a nightmare. That evening when you called, I couldn’t tell you that I’d be living here in Columbia. I wanted to scream at you or throw something. But you just pretended that nothing had happened.”

“Anderson!” Greg was still crouching to wipe up the last of the spilled coffee but he turned in the direction of the greasy senior detective.

“Stop flirting with that pretty doctor.” Maine grinned at Clary. “Do you have any questions for Ms. Williams before she goes home?”

Greg stood up and looked his sister in the eye. “Can we talk about this later? I want to work this out. But I’m on the job right now.”

Clary twirled one of the buttons on her coat. “Yeah. Sure. Let’s talk about it later.” Her hands shook as he walked away. She looked down at the charts in her hands, and struggled to remember where she had been heading when she walked through the stairwell door.

Birthday Shopping

This morning Hubster and I took Bridoodle out for breakfast. While we were waiting for our waffles and bacon to arrive, we started talking about Bri’s upcoming birthday. “What should we get her?” I asked him before sipping my hot tea.

In unison, we both started singing the Up-Up Elmo song. We’d discovered this toy a few weeks earlier, and Bri actually cried when we put the baby Elmo back on the shelf to head to another section of the store. She’d loved it immediately.

So after breakfast, we visited Wal-Mart’s toy section in the hopes of finding more birthday present ideas for her. We found several Elmo toys and some other fun ideas as well. I’ve posted a wish-lists page that will be updated for various birthdays and holidays. Right now, you can find some of the gifts that Bridoodle would like for her first birthday.

Learning About Learning

The last five days have been overwhelming. Between the demands of the first week of school, the hassle of our flag line uniforms, and Bridoodle’s fussiness over this new schedule, I’ve been burning the candle at both ends. It’s been so taxing that I’ve come home exhausted every night.

As terrible as I feel each night before bed, it’s a wonder that I wake up so excited to start over again. But I’ve been thrilled to be back in the classroom. The kids have been fabulous! And the labs have been so much fun. Today my students taught me two things. I learned that I need to go over the answers to lab questions. (I tend to skip that major step, because I already know the answers. D’oh!) They also taught me to be really specific about my instructions for lab. I’ve been working on this for awhile, but I had some fresh insights today. I love learning about learning!

Hubster has been wonderful through all of this storm. He’s helped out with the Brimeister and talked me through solutions for our uniform fiasco. I don’t know what I would do without him!

Two Truths and a Lie

Today we played a game in my classroom. The kids had to write two truths about themselves and one lie. Then a few volunteers read their three things out loud and we all guessed which one was the lie. To start the game off, I went first. Can you guess which one’s not true?

1. During the summer months, and on the weekends, I bake wedding cakes for extra money.

2. I have dissected a man’s testicles.

3. My elbow bends backwards.

Hot Pink Tosies

Death of a Ballerina *the beginning*

You’re about to read a top secret story, that I’ve only shared with my husband. This summer I tried my hand at novel writing. But I stalled out after writing the first forty or so pages, and I’m hoping that by posting my work I can get some feedback and maybe pick it back up again…

Nickel sized hail stones bounced off of Clary’s yellow umbrella, as she picked her way down the sidewalk in front of the hospital’s employee parking deck. The air vibrated with the rush of steady rain. Her dark slacks rubbed uncomfortably against her skin and cold water squished inside her leather heels. She reached the portico that covered the employee entrance, and stopped breathlessly to collapse the umbrella. Her wet fingers slipped, sending a spray of water at her face. On the other side of the glass door, the security guard suppressed a chuckle and moved quickly to open the door for her.

As the service elevator whined its way up to the third floor, Clary checked her watch and forced herself to relax. Surprisingly, she had arrived for her shift thirty minutes early. She lifted her soggy pant leg before brushing water from the sleeve of her white coat.

It was hard to believe that only one week ago, she’d received her plastic nametag, with Claire Anderson, M.D. printed in large blue letters beneath her picture. Grinning, she recalled her first day on the job. The brand new long white coat felt cumbersome compared to the shorter one that she’d worn in medical school. The buttons were fun to twirl. Her heart had leapt every time someone said, “Doctor Anderson,” while her stomach had filled with butterflies.

At lunchtime, she’d spilled half a plate of spaghetti onto herself. A huge red stain spread over her blouse and onto her pristine white coat. Horrified, she had buttoned the coat to cover the majority of the stain for the rest of the day. A little bleaching had removed the stain but unexpectedly turned the hospital’s emblem from black to peach! She had taken a Sharpie marker to the embroidery, terrified that it would bleed all over the coat. Her hands trembled as she looked at the final result, and she felt a little guilty that she had steadier nerves when closing a patient after surgery. So far, no one had mentioned anything about the coat.

The smell of coffee flooded the hallway as she stepped out of the service elevator. She followed the arrows along the halls, towards Labor and Delivery, and the women’s locker room.

Leaning into a square metal button with her right hip, she parted the L&D doors. A nurse called a cheery “G’morning Dr. Anderson” which made Clary smile, as she dripped past the nurses’ station. She headed towards the women’s locker room, noting that all of Dr. Turner’s patients had been moved to the maternity ward during the night. It was strange to see the hall so empty.

The scream that echoed back to the nurses’ desk was punctuated by the click of the locker room door closing. Clary heard the noise without even realizing that it rose from her own lungs. She stopped screaming suddenly and drew a deep breath of putrid air. Gagging she knelt to check the girl’s pulse, but did not expect to find one. Her fingers felt cold, leathery skin. The girl’s eyes stared lifelessly towards the sink; her head tilted in an unnatural position.

A slender, black nurse burst through the door armed with a fire extinguisher, resulting in a much tinier scream out of Clary. The nurse’s eyes changed from wild fear to horrified emotion as she observed the scene. The fire extinguisher clanged to the floor as she set it aside to find her cell phone. She dialed 911 with shaking fingers and eyed the kneeling doctor suspiciously. Clary heard the faint ringing of the phone and turned back to stare at the victim. The dead teenager wore a white sequined leotard and white tights. She had gray cotton shorts pulled over the tights and rainbow colored leg warmers over her ankles. She wore light pink canvas ballet shoes with elastic straps crisscrossed over the arches of her feet.

The nurse turned away from Clary and the girl. She paced back and forth near the doorway. Her white tennis shoes squeaked from the water dripping off of Clary. Her panicked voice gradually changed into a disdainful tone, as she conversed with the dispatcher.

“No! Yes! Of course she’s dead. I am a registered nurse, for goodness sakes. The doctor just checked her pulse.” The woman threw her left hand in the air as she spoke and flexed her fingers out as far as they would go.

“A routine hospital death? No. This looks like a murder. Why would I call you for a routine hospital death? A teenaged girl, dressed up like a ballerina is dead on the locker room floor.” She rolled her eyes to the ceiling and listened to the dispatcher for a few seconds. Clary could hear scratchy fragments from the cell phone. She looked at the girl’s black hair, slicked up into the traditional ballet bun. Blood had crusted at the roots, as if she’d been snatched from behind. Other than that, there was no blood on the body. The sweetheart neckline of the leotard emphasized prominent blue bruises around the larynx. The girl had obviously been strangled.

The nurse started pacing again, beside the door. She looked up at Clary and mouthed driver’s license while pointing to an overturned canvas tote bag nearby. Clary gingerly stepped over the body, careful not to let the water from her pants touch the girl’s leotard. She unzipped the bag, which had initials monogrammed on the side, and pulled out the contents. A knee length, white tutu, had been folded and placed on top of white satin pointe shoes. Beneath them, lay a pair of jeans, a t-shirt, flip- flops and a teddy bear with a blue bow. Clary searched the bag’s two pockets but only found a hair barrette and a stick of gum. She lifted her hands up and shrugged at the nurse, who returned the gesture with a perfunctory wave.

“Mm hmm. We checked the girl’s bag and didn’t find any ID.” The woman reached behind her chocolate colored ponytail to massage her neck. Then she turned and slowly scanned the room, looking for anything they’d missed. Clary used this moment to squint at the purple letters on the nametag. Since arriving last week, she had met close to forty nurses, but she remembered only two names. This nurse wore tailor-made purple scrubs with white edging. Her nametag perched daintily on her hip at Clary’s eye level. Tanjia Williams. Somehow, Clary doubted she would ever forget that name.

to be continued

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Leaving Children in the Car

Hubster told me today about a tragic case. A mother in a nearby state, left her child in the car and he died from the extreme heat. My heart jumped to my throat, because the baby was the same age as our little Bri. I asked Hubs what will happen to the woman, and he told me that she’ll probably go to jail. The worst part, in my opinion, is that her four year old daughter will have scars on her childhood no matter what.

The discussion about the case opened up a world of questions for me. Should parents be prosecuted for mistakes that result in infant fatalities? Isn’t the horror of knowing that you killed your child enough punishment? And when should parents be prosecuted?

So I want to know what you think about this issue. Here are my two biggest questions. Discuss!

1. I found a few similar cases on Google. And I want to know what you think about them. Who would you prosecute? Who would you pardon?

Case #1: A baby was left in the car with the windows rolled down while the mother went inside for groceries. She had her two year old with her in the grocery store, and when they came back outside there were angry citizens and police officers holding her baby. (The baby was okay).

Case #2: A father worked for eight hours and only realized that he’d left the baby in the car after he got off of work. He was a high school teacher on summer break, and the absence of his other school-aged children that morning, made him think that he’d already dropped everyone else off. (The baby died).

Case #3: A mom drops by a friend’s house for a quick visit and they start chatting, forgetting about the baby in the car. She realizes that the baby is unresponsive and rushes to the hospital. (The baby died).

Case #4: After a fun family day at the water park, the mom takes the children home while the dad runs out to buy dinner. The mom unloads all of the kids from the van, and all of the stuff, but misses the baby. (The baby died).

2. During my drive to and from work, I have habits that I use to remind me of the baby’s presence at all times. If she’s in the car, I stay in the right lane on the way to work so that I know I have to turn right to take her to daycare. That way, if I get distracted, I don’t forget about her. If she’s not in the car with me, then I drive in the left lane. It’s a simple little memory tool that I’ve turned into a habit. I do the same thing in reverse on the way home so that I don’t forget to pick her up.

What tips do you have for remembering your children?

Conversation with Hubs

Earlier today, Hubster and I went to Sonic to grab some lunch. Here’s a snippet of our conversation.

Me: Well, now that we’ve ordered we should make up our own version of one of those Sonic commercials.

Hubs: Huh?

Me: You know. The ones where the husband and wife are sitting in the car, talking. And they always say something really stupid.

Hubs: Oh yeah. (swings fist in air and makes punching sound effect like the commercial)

Me: I just realized why they’re always sitting in the car. It’s a drive in restaurant.

Hubs: You’ve got to be kidding me. (laughing) There’s your commercial right there.

Me: I thought it was weird that they were always going through the drive-thru.

Vote For BlogHer ‘09 Location

Just like the title says, you can vote where you’d like to go for next year’s BlogHer location. I’m so tempted to tell you which one I’m voting for, but I’m not that kind of girl. Vote for wherever you’d like to visit. It’s a free country. (But those plane tickets are not free, I’m just sayin’)